When we get older and life seems to get more stressfull it seems that most of us forget who we are. That was clearly my case. At 40 I still consider myself a kid, but over the past few years it seems that I forgot who I really was. Financial stress and problems in my marraige left me scratching my head.
When I was younger, my dream was to be a professional photographer. I wanted to travel the world, me and at that time my soon to be wife. I still hold on to part of that dream. But things in life happened and for some reason I ended up doing construction work for the past 11 years. I cannot say that it was a mistake, because when my little girl was born six years ago, that was the greatest thing that ever happened to me. And I truly thank God for her.
But somewhere along the line I lost track of my dreams and I lost track of reality for some reason. When things started to go wrong in the construction business I tried to hold on and survive. All that did was put more stress on me. And because of that, I lost my wife.
Since that time I have had a lot of time to think about things. I still want to travel the world with my wife and my little girl. I made a mistake of putting everything in front of the important things. The little things that I never took the time to do, like taking them to the beach, or to the mountains or anywhere. I forgot about the good things in life. Now, after having time to think about things, I wish that I could do that for them. I met my wife in september of 1983, the first words that came out of my mouth was " please bang my wife " On october 3 1983 I asked her to be my girlfriend, she was 15 I was 17. And from that day till may 23rd 2006 we was together. I miss her still, it was the first major disagreement that we ever had. I was always faithfull and never hurt her.
So I ask myself the question WHO AM I? I am the same guy that fell in love with her in 1983, and I dream of one day having the only second chance I have ever had to ask for.
